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Is it fitness? Is it diet? Is it weightloss?

What if I said that what I love in life, what I truly live for had nothing to do with any of the above?  That I did not even start this jouney to get skinny or to get a rockin’ hard body or to have the endurance to sweat for hours a day. What gave me the motivation to lose weight was my family. I love them more than life. I wanted to be healthy and energetic. I wanted to be a good role model, a sexy wife, and I wanted to be around for them for a long time. I still want all of these things but somewhere along the way this all kinda turned into something else. To fit into the next size down. To see a lower number on the scale. My half an hour workout that I was losing weight with turned into an hour, and then another hour in the evening because of corse two hours in a day would provide even better results… and that doesn’t even include the amount of time I spent on buddyslim, Talking about weightloss:)

I started imagining what kind of body that I could  achieve ( imagine one of your fav celebrities:)  I believe that I could have a body like that. Anybody can do it if they are willing to put in the work. But there is a line between doing this for health benefits or simply for vanity.

Don’t get me wrong I am happy for anybody who is willing to dedicate that much of their time to weightloss. Everybody needs something in life that they are passionate about.

For me personally, it is time to take a step back, and get my priorities straight. I am happy with a 30 minute run or a bike ride in the morning. It provides the cardio that I need and gives me energy to keep up with my family during the day. I am learning a lot about my food choises and I have thought twice about binge eating more times than  not this past month. I reconize when my body is full and it is time to quit eating. I still have a lot to learn. But I have found that with my diet and exercise routine I have steadily lossed about a pound and a half a week whether I obsess about it or not so I have decided NOT to obsess about it. This is the next step in my weight loss journey.

I am trying so hard to get over this nastiness… I havn’t had a fever all day today… I am thankful for that because I don’t think my head could handle much more:( I have come down with an ear infection though that is driving me crazy and I am seriously dehydrated!!! I lost weight just from sweating out this sickness but I have been drinking water, juce and gatorade all day so hopefully by tomorrow I will get my energy back and will at least be able to go for a short run. I have not exercised in 4 days!!! and being too sick to be permitted in the kitchen my (((hubby))) brought me Mcdonalds for lunch! I did not eat most of it, not even the drink( soda) so at least I am am making good decisions foodwise. 

My baby’s birthday is tomorrow!!! He will be one year old, but his party will be on Saturday. I am so excited AND I have completed one of my weight loss goals: to not be overweight by my son’s first birthday!!! Yeah!!! Just didn’t want to be totting around a toddler and still trying to shed that leftover ”baby” weight:)

 My next weight loss goal: to get into the 140’s!

I have been soo sick.

I have had fever, chills, aches & pains. I havn’t been able to eat hardly anything at all and no exercise.

I won’t be back on here until I start feeling better.

I hope everyone is having a better week than I am!

When I first came to buddyslim I was so out of shape. Gosh, I hadn’t exercised in years at all. I didn’t even like the feeling of being sweaty or out of breath or getting my heart rate up and it showed!!!

So I never blogged about the fact the that I used to run.  Me run? Four month ago I didn’t even walk:)

But I did run everyday for years. I had already had a kid and I was in the best shape of my life! It was my stress relief and my source of confidence. Everytime I met a goal I would set another and I would achieve it. Running was my freedom because it made me feel like I could do anything!

Then with life changes I stopped and never really looked back. Over the years I slowly put on more weight and became unhealthy to the point that I knew I would have to do something about it or deal with the conseqences of living an unhealthy lifestyle.

That is how I found running again. Only a few months ago  I started walking with a little bit of running. It was hard for me to even run one block! It was embarrassing! But I kept at it and did a little more each time. A little longer, a little less walking and more running and I started losing weight!

 I am getting healthy and when I am out there pushing myself, pacing my breathing, willing my body I feel like I am the person that I want to be. I feel strong and fit. When I am running I am not the 170 lbs I was when I started but I am the 140 lbs that I want to be! 

You know the ones that say that they are all natural with 140 calories a peice. I can’t resist them! I should have known… They have all of my favorite things, fruit and nuts and little chocolate chunks.

 I have a jar full of halloween candy sitting on top of my fridge that I havn’t touched but today I ate a whole box of snack bars!!! ( and of corse I washed each one down with milk.)

I was complaining last week sometime that I hadn’t lost any inches in my waistline, well that isn’t really true I lost an inch in the very begaining but that is it. So I decided to do something about it. This last week I have added pilates and exercise that target my abs. I also got out my 3lb weights and I have been using those. I spend an hour in the evening  working these “problem” areas and wowee my tummy is sore, so are my arms! I am not going to measure again for awhile but I REALLY hope this helps.

My plan for the upcoming holidays is to treat it like any other day. I will enjoy the company but I am not going to make a deal out of the food. I am thankful that my family has plenty of food and I am not starving(obviously:)  I am not going to spend that one day eating like it is my last! This will be easier for me too because we are not spending Thanksgiving at home(no leftovers) Christmas will be harder, goodness how I love thin mints and truffles….

 People don’t seem to have any problem putting harmful substances into their bodies and calling it “food” and they actually believe that eating or drinking these things are okay as long it’ s done in “moderation.” 

You wouldn’t tell  a drug addict or an alcoholic that it is okay to use as long as it’s done in moderation so why would you tell someone(especially an overweight or obese person) that eating junk is okay as long as it’s not too much!!!

What is worse is when we are told that if we don’t give in to these things once in awhile that our diet plan is bound to fail based on the frame of mind that we will feel “deprived” unless we allow ourselves a taste of every sugary, salty, overprocessed snack that we can’t resist!

It is no wonder that most people feel starved all of the time and overeat to the point of becoming overweight. Most of what we put in our bodies has practically no nutritional value! ALOT of good food would be better for us than a moderate amount of unhealthy food.

I believe that our likes and dislikes in food are based  on what we get used to and I believe that we could learn to fall in love with food that is nutritious fuel for our bodies if we gave it a chance. It should NOT be considered deprivation to respect ourselves enough to give our bodies what we need and to abstain from what we do not!!!

I weighed myself this morning and I have lost about fifteen lbs. which is pretty good, right? and I am happy… I really am but where did I lose it? My stomach is still the same 35″… The one place that I want to lose weight the most. ( I got myself a man that likes the booty:)

So what do I do? I just want to lose about 3″, to have a 32″ waist. That would make me plenty happy, to fit nicely into a pair of size 10 jeans… sigh…

I wasn’t going to start doing any serious toning until I lost more fat but should I start working on this gut now?

Every five pounds that I lose I give myself a little reward by going shopping at my favorite store, American Eagle Outfitters… ooooh I love their clothes.

BUT there are rules… the first rule: I only get buy a couple things at a time, no splurging. I am resisting the urge to binge with shopping as I am with food. Besides I need to get as much  use out of the clothes that I have as possible:)

The second rule: No jeans. Not until I reach my weight loss goal. I need no exuse to slow me down form getting there, not even a nice fitting pair of jeans.

The third rule: For every trip I get to make I have to get rid of a couple of items in my wardrobe. Just whatever has been getting too loose. I will never let myself get that size again so there no need to have that stuff laying around.

So that is my reward and those are the rules. It is a sweet little treat to look forward to about every month or so….

Take a look…  You have to enlarge them to see any difference since the first one was taken farther away…